Aug 28 2026
I keep wanting to write about this but get embarrassed. How do I ask a partner to do some work to improve the general eroticism of their day-to-day life? I think reading erotica or writing about your fantasies or spending time engaging in very intentional masturbation can help so much and I know we agree that this is an area where we can do work but I am the only one doing work. I don't know. 

I sound like a deadbeat reddit husband posting in r/deadbedrooms. Kill me. 

Aug 27 2026
I don't want anybody but you but what am I to do when you don't want to want. 

Sometimes my peers say things that are, in my opinion, concerning and kind of crazy and I wish I was bold enough to give my honest responses. 

Aug 25 2026

My lovely lesbian friends have been encouraging me to write erotica which has been a fun outlet! I think it is always good for me to welcome writing of every caliber and kind even if it makes me feel a bit shy. I start writing classes this week and I have been desperate to awaken from this sleepy stage I have been in. I have too much to make happen to be feeling so sluggish. I may go buy a book today. 

Aug 18 2026

The trip was undeniably fantastic. I felt in my element and amazing. I try not to let myself be too sad about not getting to move out of America because it seems like a waste to be upset about something so out of my control but... I am sad about it. I want the choice. It's hard to feel so hopeless here. I love traveling but it confuses my spirit.

Aug 6 
Time to pack! My turn to venture to Spain.

Starting August early because I ran out of space on the other file. 


I am feeling quite poor as it seems I am never as important or close to people as I think. One of my closest friends has me at the bottom of her list for the day she's moving. Other people first. Is it my personality? I know I can be difficult and prickly and I try so hard to be sweet and lovely and pleasant.